day 21 of the challenge

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

him.

not totally forget but just some parts of it. one motto of mine is if you enjoyed it, never regret it. i enjoyed. so no regrets. just wish i can deliberately forget the latter part of the story.

this is jeff. a part of my (e)X files.

i was his number 2. he was my number 2. we decided to just spend 1 night just as if we were available and the next thing i know, 1 night turned into months...

i loved him. i really did. then he screwed everything up so bad that the only way for us to part ways is to be angry with each other. then we made up but i decided not to pursue the relationship. he wanted to, boy did he want to.

to this day, he remains to be the standard with which my potential partners are measured.

he's also the reason why i became versatile, more top. (if you don't know what this means, don't find out)

thinking of you...

lately, i've been thinking about my classmates in college... what happened to them? where do they work? are they ok?

the last one i saw was syka. we had lunch at megamall. i heard she's a team captain now in a call center. (team captain is like a supervisor) ok, i give up, she's working with telus.

shiela and ely are also working in the call center industry. for an insurance company. good luck to them. i worked with insurance i had a hard time. i forgot the name. ely and i were just chatting in facebook a while ago.

dyn is taking up law in a university in the far east (not really the direction but change it up and you'll get the name of the school). i guess i know who to run to if (God forbid) i have legal troubles.

ysah had a baby. i don't know who the dad is, but i'm guessing she does. good for her.

lat time i checked, both ysah, ryan (ponio) and kate are working with convergys. kate also had a baby since the last time i saw her.

alvie and i exchanged messages last sunday... i think. anyway i think he's still with the same company as syka... and cielo.

i don't know who got "out" of their closets (or went back in for that matter). ronald and i were recently (a few minutes ago) connected through facebook.

i don't know where rudolf is but i'm hoping his nose isn't red with too much drinking.

i know cha-cha got married and had a baby.

last i heard, toni and jonah were both working with banks.

wipao, jen, and justin were all working with IBM. persistent rumors about a closet being opened........ no comments. if you want to know, find out for yourself whose closet had been opened for public viewing. and one of these three turned me down when i asked them out. *sad face with self pity, shouting "am i not good enough? ano pa bang kulang sakeeeeennn???"* nah... it doesn't really work with me.

zeus and jazz were a couple when i left. they're no longer a couple now, right? i heard jazz went ahead and bought herself a house. and zeus is working with a call center. i'm not sure if jazz is.

who else?

the boys.

i don't know where jeff, eric, lyko, clark, leonard, joemark, bryan, yj, jp, xeriel and the others (does it show i can't remember their names? sowee guys) are.

i remember having the slightest crush on "baby boy" jeff. he was so damn cute and kind. only problem is, he's short and i like my guys at least an inch taller than me.

nobody knew this and since i'm planning on sending the link to this site to my college friends, i'm thinking they will know now. keep your mouth shut. anyway it was a very long time ago... but if given the chance now... why not eh? hahaha

and speaking of crushes, i don's know if you can qualify it as a crush because it's more of curiosity of what lies behind those pants... i had a thing for zeus.

it's a tell-all so i'm telling all i can... hahaha

the girls.

don't know where macel, michelle, lesza, aicy, jenny, em em, alex, jeck, glaiza, angge, iris and all the others (i can't think of them right now) are. hope they're alright.

the gays.

hapon? nothing. i have nothing. i do remember getting a letter from him back then saying (in effect) that he had a crush on me. sorry hapon, during those times, i still wanted to maintain a bisexual orientation since i still like girls. if you came about a year after that, i wouldn't have second guessed and maybe we could have had something. well, nothing gained, nothing lost right?

is that everybody?

ohhh... i forgot about arvin... but then again, i don't have squat on him...

these are the people who made my 2 years in PUP (yes, i studied there) a whole lot of fun. i admit, the course wasn't really what i wanted to take but if it weren't for them i wouldn't have lasted that long.

hope to see you guys soon. i keep hearing you guys get together every year for a simple reunion. i'll join you guys one day... i promise.

got questions? hit me back,just to chat.

miss you guys.

anti-twilight (or new moon or kung ano pa man)

26th november 2009

as much as i hate to admit that i grew very fond of the harry potter series, i love to admit that i didn't like the twilight series. no offense to the die hard i-can't-wait-to-watch-it-again fans of the saga, including my good friend Zooka who thinks (and insists) that she is bella. last time i checked, she was despairing that her boyfriend's name isn't edward.

anyway, i do have a reason for not liking it very much (ok, i liked it. but the feeling passed quickly... like 5 minutes after i watched the movie). i find the story kind of familiar... hehehe hindi naman exactly familiar, pero parang same old same old lang. troubled girl, divorced parents, cute mysterious guy, forbidden love, the lovers trying to fight what they feel for each other... pakiramdam ko napanood ko na 'to. sobrang common na kasi yung storyline.

to tell you the truth, pinanood ko lang yun dahil kay robert pattinson (robert nga ba yun?). eversince i saw him in harry potter (goblet of fire) as cedric, i found
him cute. hahaha

medjo mababaw (para sakin) yung kwento. then again, i only saw the first movie. yung first movie kasi, feeling ko, tapos na. wala ng kasunod. complete na yung story.
hehehe nain-love sila sa isa't isa, at natanggap si bella nung family ni edward. parang pinahaba na lang. pinakilala si jacob and it was made clear from the start that he was "interested" in bella and that his family is the enemy of the vampires (kung hindi man clear sa mga tao yun, ibig sabihin common and predictable talaga yung kwento hahaha). si jacob ay pang love triangle dun sa dalawa at pang bonggang fight scene with edward. shempre kasama sa pag-aawayan nila si bella at malamang alamang, magfi-feeling referee si bella dun sa duwa.

atchaka di ba gusto ni bella maging vampire??? ang hindi ko maintindihan eh kung bakit ayaw ni edward na gawin siyang vampire. marami akong kakilala na willing maging
vampire para lang makasama ang kanilang "special someone" (myself included). so bakit ayaw niya?

according to the raves and review of my friends who saw the second movie, they said that it was very, very, very good but it was bitin... i also got a lot of very
"interesting" comments about jacob and his body... =p

but despite the urgings of my friends who wants to watch the movie again (mga fanatic), i've decided that i won't watch this movie. siguro yntayin ko na lang lumabas sa suking pirata para mejo tipid... hehehe hindi po ako kuripot. ayoko lang
talaga panoorin sa sine... hehehe

but of course, if i'll be asked by the right person (nababasa kaya niya ito?) to watch the movie, as in movie date, why not di ba??? gusto ko lang pong linawin... hindi ko po sinisiraan yung movie. hindi ko po aim na maansha ang buong populasyon ng edward-bella forever fans club. actually gusto ko nga malinawan kung bakit ang daming may gusto dun sa movie eh.

macompare ko lang sa HP series ha... yung HP, hindi ko rin yun gusto nung una... as in feeling ko super childish yung kwento para sakin... pero nung pinanood ko
yung first movie, naging interesado ako... excited ako malaman kung ano mangyayari kay harry, anong mangyayari kay he who must not be named, etc... tapos nung mapanood
ko yung second, nadagdagan ang interes ko sa series... kasi dumami yung mysteries nung kwento... hahaha

eh dito sa twilight saga, pagkatapos nung una, hindi man lang ako nabitin. naisip ko na agad kung anong magiging papel ni jacob at na-anticipate ko na yung mangyayaring
away... yun... parang napanood ko na yung buong series sa utak ko... mas maganda nga lang pihado yung effects sa sinehan...

ewan... hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit ayaw ko siya panoorin... hehehe
again, no offense sa mga fanatics... personal opinion ko lang talaga 'to... peace tayo... =p

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on a completely separate topic, today would be the death anniversary of one of my fathers. yes, i have several fathers. hahaha i have a dad, i have my papa and i have
my tatay lito who died of ??? (i forgot why he died but he had a colostomy bag and me and my ninang would clean and change it every day). he died in 1995, when i was 9
years old.

he was a lawyer with a heart. from the stories i've heard and from personal experience, i can confidently say that he didn't stifle anybody. some of his clients
back then were financially challenged people (really challenged) and they would pay him in kind. he would receive veggies or chicken or whatever was available... you know, the typical provincia payments... when they do pay in cash, it would be very minimal... not enough even for a lawyer's retainer fee.

i practically grew up with their family because my mom and my dad were both working back then. if i wasn't with them, i was with my lola (before she died). i slept in
their house most of the time and when me and my mom had a big fight later on in life, when i was 15, and i left the house, i lived with them (their house is just one
house away from ours), until i was 19.

tatay lito was a good soul. he was kind, giving, loving and understanding. he was not so much with words of endearment but you can definitely feel his love. he
raised three beautiful people: kuya aurly (who died a week later, 2nd december), my ninang, and kuya ville. i would've been the 4th had he lived longer.

i can't believe that 14 years later, i can still remember how i felt when they told me that he passed away. i cried my eyes out. i tear my blankets to shreds. and then i cried some more. i cried for almost half of that day. i just couldn't believe back then why he had to die. he was so good to me.

i remember i had a dream about him and kuya aurly (after about a day or two after kuya aurly's burial). they met me in a hill and told me not to worry about them and to tell the others that they are now happy in heaven. i distinctly remember this dream because after i described it to my nanay auring (tatay lito's better half), she
cried. i cried, too, along with my ninang who also heard the story.

now that i'm older (and preferably wiser), i have learned to understand that he was taken away because he was done with whatever he had to do. his purpose here on earth have already been served and he did it wonderfully... shaping me with his words, actions, and teachings along the way.

we remember tatay lito, died 26th november 1995. may he forever rest in peace in the arms of the Great One.